This past weekend marked my official one year as a Beachbody coach! I spent the day reflecting, journaling, celebrating with my hubby and crying tears of joy when I think of how far I've come. My amazing bestie / coach Anna sent me an amazing scarf and card, I sobbed a whole lot, shared a super raw and vulnerable live video on my Facebook page (how cool is Facebook live you guys? I love it!) and spent the day feeling incredibly grateful for everything this past year has taught me.
And today? Well, I'm feeling so called to share my heart and everything that I've been feeling and thinking...and you know how I can't help myself but just be REAL with you guys, so I'm going to try to put into words everything I'm feeling right now.
I’m so excited to have this first year behind me and getting out of the "beginner" stage of this. I LOVE learning, but the beginner mindset has always been a bit overwhelming for me because learning something (well anything) new can be HARD. When I signed up to become a coach a year ago, my coach Anna said to "be here in one year". I didn't really understand why that was so important but I do now. It really does take a full year of consistent hard work to build a foundation for your business. To learn the ropes and figure it the fuck out. Once the sparkly excitement of starting something new wears off, you have to face all your deepest insecurities, blocks, and fears, and work your way through them to become stronger and find your voice and your purpose. It's easy to get discouraged and lots of coaches quit before they give themselves a chance, which breaks my heart. But I refused to give up. Because I saw the bigger picture. And because I believe with every fiber of my being that this is exactly where I'm supposed to be.
Like any small business, it takes 2-3 years to start to really launch off the ground, so I’m really fucking excited to see where this journey will take me now that I have given myself the grace to figure it out and FLY.
Today, I wanted to share a more personal post to reflect on the journey so far because oh my gosh you guys, EVERYTHING has changed for me since last November. Plus I know that so many of my friends and family have no idea what I’m doing with my life (haha!). So here is a sneak peek into my story :)
Last November, I hit a major wall in my life. Some might call it a quarter life crisis, but whatever it was, it wasn't pretty. From a career perspective, I was feeling suuuuper unfulfilled. I was happy whenever I was at rehearsal (acting is my jam and it lights me up like crazy), but working the 5 other jobs just to pay the bills and keep myself afloat? It was slowly sucking my soul. And I was feeling “gross” about my body because of all of the comfort food I was consuming to numb myself from everything. I was turning into this negative nancy, pessimistic and burnt out version of myself that I could barely recognize and it was really scary.
And when you start to admit to yourself? That life isn’t what you want it to be, and that you aren’t the person you know you CAN be, it's pretty dang scary.
So, after I had spent arguably far too much time feeling sorry for myself, I decided something had to change.
Since 2012, health & fitness had been a big part of my life. I'd been growing an active community on my health and fitness Instagram account and loved being part of the Tone It Up community there. I was projecting a positive outlook on life and I knew I had influence on other women who followed me, but I needed something more. I needed something for ME!
My friend Anna was a Beachbody coach and when I saw that her life was filled with all of the things I craved more of (freedom, creativity, joy, passion), I knew I needed to know more. And the idea of being able to inspire other women to take the first step towards becoming their best & healthiest self literally set my soul on fire. So after weeks of internal debate and obsessively Googling to make sure Beachbody wasn’t some sort of scam or pyramid scheme, I knew deep down that this was it. My gut was saying YES, so I took the leap of faith and signed up to coach as soon as I ordered the 21 Day Fix. From the minute I hit the “enroll” button, I immediately felt a massive shift inside of me. The giant weight that had been pressing down on my chest for months all but evaporated. It was crazy, and I guess just goes to show that when you listen to your intuition, shit gets GOOD real fast. Have you ever listened to or felt your intuition? It's pretty fucking cool.
Where I am now
One year of daily personal development, goal setting, hard work, learning, failing forward, diving beyond my comfort zone and digging deep to truly connect with other women and their stories by opening up and sharing mine, I've helped almost 100 women gain confidence and strength through my Live Your F*ck YES Life Challenge, and I've built a thriving team of 56 inspiring and determined coaches who share my vision. I've made friendships with gals who feel like family, found out what my body is capable of, healed my negative relationship to food (officially a recovered binge eater which is something I never thought I would be able to say), overcome my lack of self worth, and take a chance on my dreams.
I'm learning how to live my life based on my values and priorities, instead of checking things off a stereotypical bucket list because that's what I think I should be doing. Instead of working out to change or punish my body for eating too much or not the "right thing", I do it because I RESPECT my body and I know that I will FEEL my best when I get my workouts in and use food to FUEL my body. I’m learning that saying YES to something that feels right is never the wrong decision, and that it's okay if not everyone understands why you're doing what you're doing. Because once you start opening up and declaring your dreams and intentions to the world, the fear melts away and opportunities just start to appear. It's pretty amazing and honestly, it takes my breath away.
For the first time in the past 10 years, I can truly say that I am binge free. My anxiety is at bay. I'm no longer the shadow of the girl I wanted to be -- I am energized, filled with freaking joy and living life on my OWN terms. (You mean you can spend your days in yoga pants, sharing your story on social media, connecting with other inspiring women, cooking, snuggling with your pup and traveling around the world AND make a living doing it? And in the process, learn how to love yourself and treat your body and your mind with RESPECT, LOVE and KINDNESS. Yup. Dreams do freaking come true.)
I help over-achieving go-getters with emotional eating tendencies aka women just like me learn how to have a positive relationship with food, find JOY in the everyday & love themselves from the inside out. It all starts with self care and courage to say YES to the woman you were always meant to be, and the easiest way to redefine your relationship with yourself is to start treating your body RIGHT with healthy food and consistent workouts. Once you put your health FIRST, you start to feel strong, powerful, badass and in control of your destiny. You become your own freaking superhero.
The best part? This isn't just a pipe dream. I am literally watching women have these breakthroughs. I'm facilitating these life changing internal and external transformations every single day before my eyes. Knowing that I have the ability to actually MAKE A DIFFERENCE in someone else's life -- to inspire them and give them the tools to be their BEST SELF -- is so fucking mind blowing and it humbles me every single day.
I believe that everyone deserves to be able to make a living by sharing their unique gifts and talents with the world. We all have the capacity to change lives and make a bigger difference if we stop holding ourselves back and settling for what feels safe and comfortable.
I used to be afraid of shooting for the stars. I thought it was naive of me. But now I’m literally seeing it happen before my eyes. It's possible. Really and truly. You just have to decide you're worth it and say YES. I never thought I could have the life I have now. But you know what? I said YES to something new and different because I knew I needed a change and now look where I am! I’m changing lives, I’m supporting myself, and instead of spending countless hours searching the internet for jobs that don't make me happy and spending my days literally wiping poop off of baby's bottoms that aren't mine, I have given myself the permission to create a custom-tailored job description that perfectly reflects my unique knowledge, skills, and abilities and is designed BY ME to give me the greatest joy everrr.
Don’t ignore your dreams.
Don’t ever convince yourself that you can't do something because if I can do it, anyone can.
It’s hard, it’s messy, it takes courage and definitely hard work (albeit amazing, life altering, warm and fuzzy work) and it’s definitely not for everyone, but if there’s a tiny little voice deep down inside, you better start listening to it. Because when you do? Amazing things start happening and all of a sudden, you find yourself surrounded my others who are kicking ass along side of you and raising you up and you wonder how you weren't here sooner.
I don’t know where this journey will lead me. And you know what? This recovering control freak is a-ok with that. I'm trusting the process and confident that my heart and my inner sense of purpose will lead me in the right direction. It hasn't led me astray yet.
For the first time in my life, I'm not afraid of what the future holds. I don't feel the need to make endless bucket lists to create a purpose for myself because I've found it. And I know that everything will work out exact as its supposed to as long as I never settle, never give up, do the work and choose to show up every single day.
Beachbody coaching has given me the framework to make all this happen, and I could not be more grateful that I said YES to this opportunity this time last year. I can't imagine where I'd be if I hadn't.
It's been a beautiful whirlwind, and I wouldn't have made it this far without my family, friends, random strangers on the internet turned FRIENDS, and my Inspire Joy family. Thank you SO MUCH for supporting me and believing in me every step of the way.
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